*destroyerdragon

Last year I dropped out of my BSc/BA degree because I was feeling bored, trapped and depressed. This year, I'm just plain bored. I was so excited about doing a Fine Arts degree, back in January. Compare with this entry: [link]

When I started my BSc/BA, I had a similar level of excitement. That pattern is replaying itself. I guess I'm just too optimistic, high expectations and all that. I also can't belive I chose printmaking. I can change majors, but that still doesn't excite me.

I'm thinking of maybe dropping Fine Arts to just do short courses and lots of work until I figure out what I really like. So far I've probably been jumping into things without thinking. I need to mature a bit.

I'm still going to keep up all my random art, but I don't know that I want to commit to just one artform. And then I don't like being told how I should be doing things. Much of my semester at COFA has involved me trying to thwart the instructions of teachers. Maybe I should just develop my own style by myself?

During these holidays I've put a lot of unexpected energy into music. Listening to music, making sound art, playing my instruments, singing... I think I might investigate that further. I've also been working on my story (now 4564 words!) which I'd like to finish, but don't have the time during semester.

I've already downloaded a discontinuation form. All that's left to do is sign it and hand it in. I think I'll at least do the first week of semester 2, but I'm so ready to go that I think I'll be tempted to put a negative spin on everything.

Am I acting irrationally?

Sorry I've taken so long to submit new work. I've been distracted. I started my holiday sick, so I was in bed most of the time. Then when I got over that, I manically timetabled my holiday activities and stuck to the plan for a whole week. And now I've given up again lol.

Well anyway, I just submitted my paintings. They got me a high credit, woo. I'm currently working on a painting just for myself. I was thinking of entering my local gallery's competition but I don't think my art is quite up to it yet. It's not worth AU$40 to enter something I have bugger all chance at.

Other things I've been up to...

I started teaching myself violin again. Thanks to the internet, I can now do things that my teacher hadn't taught me.

I'm also teaching myself diabolo. I can make it go over my arm now, not bad for someone who used to suck at catching everything. Something weird I've noticed is that I can only catch diabolo if I take my glasses off. Even though it's blurry, it seems my natural eyesight gives me the best depth perception.

I signed up to NIN's remix website. Hopefully it'll work with one of my free programs. Then I can make some music that sounds a little better. Check my MySpace for my sound art: [link]

I'm working on more unfashion... Very slowly though... And knitting too.

Been doing a bit more writing. The usual poetry, but also revived an old story idea from 2006.

And I'm also doing a bit of maintenance on my bonsai. I might submit some of the better ones on dA once I've cleaned them up a bit.

In addition to all that, I'm still busily working at Kodak Express, and occasionally socialising. As you can see, the art is coming vvveeerrryyy ssslllooowwwlllyyy. >.<

I'm bored and my brain is a bit crazy atm so I thought I'd just show off my lame Organic Patterns project. They're all about 38x38cm, or 15"x15", so they were too big for my scanner, and that's why I have to give you my crappy photos of them. Bleagh. Combined with my earlier project [link] [link] [link] [link] , I just managed to get a distinction.

So here's this messy project. Enjoy.

I've just finished my semester1 classes, and there's only an art history slide test left to go! Boy do I need some time off. I had an artistic crisis the other night and almost changed my major to sculpture, but then I looked up printmaking on wikipedia and fell in love with a Mount Fuji woodblock print and some etchings. Sculpture at COFA is too conceptually focused for my liking. It can have a great idea behind it and well planned symbolism, but still look like a hunk of junk. With printmaking, I can still hide my symbols even if my teachers don't see them, and with a bit of effort they might even look good!

Well, now to my holidays...

I plan to do some knitting, tear up some more clothing, practise diablo (the crazy juggling thing on a string), find me some singing and dancing lessons, enter the painting prize at my local gallery, learn to sell stuff on eBay, do more sound art/music, reteach myself maths, learn japanese, do some bonsai maintenance, read the pile of books building up near my bed, fix my viola, and practice playing the violin, viola, guitar and keyboard.

Any other ideas? I have until the end of July to get as much done as possible. If I've said I was gonna do something but haven't yet (apart from making T-shirts) please harrass me to get moving on it. If anyone just has a random request, I'll try my best to take up the challenge!

As an art student, I couldn't resist the chance to comment on the recent controversy surrounding Bill Henson's work. My views are completely personal and really have little application in the overall debate, but they are still views and I thought I'd share them.

If you're interested, it's all up on my blog: [link]

In summary, I'm against his work. I prefer his art where there are no people in the picture. He does awesome clouds. But he's an old guy taking photos of young kids, and those are the photos he seems to care most about. For that, I can't like him at all. Don't blame me, I'm an asexual.